Living my HI life

Making the most of situations

Enjoying the good and the bad

This year I am going to...

Beach more

Read more

Eat more

Run more

Kiss more

Love more

Living my HI life in the most optimistic way

-A.

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Living in between moments.

I always wondered what I my younger self would think of the person I've become.  

Would I have been proud? disappointed? happy? 

That's the problem though, you never know until you get there.  

You can't judge from before, you can only move forward

Paths change, roads may be untaken

Regrets will just soak up all your energy

That's why I plan to start 2014 with a clean slate.

Wait not even 2014, let's start today

Let's start right now

Dreams are great, but pursuing them is even better.

I want to be happy, I want people the people around me to be happy

I want to pursue the dreams and hopes that I've been hiding behind in this blog

I want to make the change,

 make the mistakes, 

and become the person that I always knew I would be.

A.

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Losing yourself, finding yourself, and creating yourself.

An evolution of self.

Nothing more, nothing less

than you...

-A.

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Would we have been happy?

Would we have been happy if we never met?

Our lives would take different paths

The dreams we dreamt were ours

There would be no sadness

Taking in the unknown

Maybe it would have been for the best

If we lived our own lives...

-a.

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This the last time I am in denial.

In a state of denial, sadness, and uncertainty. I have to move forward, to overlook things that don't matter.  Change your surroundings, and change your state.  Growth is needed, change is inevitable. 

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-A.

Hope

Something to look forward to this season...

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-A.

What could have been

I feel like I've been so vague in discussing what I actually feel and how it's affecting my life.  It's time to be honest with myself.  When I started this blog I was filled with the most optimisium a person can have in a fun and exciting period of their early college days.  Okay maybe not that exciting, but exciting enough for me to look forward to an amazing future that I hoped for.  Nothing ever turns out the way you plan.  throughout the whole college experience I thought I found my niche in Marketing, that eventually led me to graduate with a BBA.  Somewhere between that period of starting my blog I contemplated studying abroad and I still don't understand how I let fear get the best of me.  Fear that I will lose my relationship if I went abroad, fear that I will be in debt of college loans, fear of not being about to fit in or adjust in that environment, and fear that I will be alone through the whole process.   I wish someone stopped me for a moment and really gave me chance to really see what an amazing experience that could've been.  Amazing in a sense of not just dreamlike, but a learning experience through the good and the bad.  Now I am at a position where I cannot travel on my own, nor have the funds to do so.  I am currently trying to build a career at a company that I started when I was 19.  I am doing the right steps, the same very strategic steps I took in college to attain my degree.  I do the work cover from cover, word by word.  I'm doing what I feel like I'm suppose to be doing, but why am I still not happy?  I admire people who love what they do for a living, and always dream that maybe I can be that happy one day too.  I wish I knew where to start, I feel that I don't have the passion, and I may not even have the drive.  I just know I still have time to pick up my missing pieces,  I wish I took a step back and really let myself be emerged in my dreams and not be set in my priorities. 

-A.